Friday, October 31, 2014

Lech Lecha - Test of Design

~ Thoughts on the Parsha ~
Parshas Lech Lecha


Test by Design
By: Daniel Listhaus

 וַה' אָמַר אֶל אַבְרָם אַחֲרֵי הִפָּרֶד לוֹט מֵעִמּוֹ שָׂא נָא עֵינֶיךָ וּרְאֵה מִן הַמָּקוֹם אֲשֶׁר אַתָּה שָׁם צָפֹנָה וָנֶגְבָּה וָקֵדְמָה וָיָמָּה: כִּי אֶת כָּל הָאָרֶץ אֲשֶׁר אַתָּה רֹאֶה לְךָ אֶתְּנֶנָּה וּלְזַרְעֲךָ עַד עוֹלָם:

“Hashem said to Avram after Lot had parted from him, ‘Raise now your eyes and look out from where you are: northward, southward, eastward, and westward. For all the land that you see, to you will I give it, and to your descendants forever. ”
-Lech Lecha 13:14-15

            The Torah[1] relates that Lot’s shepherds of Lot started quarreling with the Avraham’s shepherds. Rashi[2] explains that the cause of the dispute was that Lot’s shepherds would graze their cattle in the fields of others, and Avrahams’s shepherds would rebuke them saying that they were stealing by allowing their animals to graze and others’ fields. However, Lot’s shepherds would just rationalize and retort that the land [Eretz Yisroel] was promised to Avraham, and being that he has no heir, Lot’s family would inherit it so it is not really stealing. This of course was nothing more than a rationalization because as the next passuk (verse) says, “The Canaanite and Perizzite were then dwelling in the land”, so Avraham did not yet have possession of it. As we know, this argument resulted in Lot separating from Avraham and moving to Sodom.

            The passuk[3] tells us that right after Lot parted from Avraham, Hashem came to Avraham and told him to look around in all four directions, that all the land he could see will be his and his descendents forever. Rashi[4] is bothered by why the Torah feels it necessary to stress the fact that it was specifically right after Lot left Avraham that Hashem came to speak to him. Rashi answers that the entire time Lot was with Avraham, Hashem did not speak to Avraham because Lot was wicked.

            The S’forno, however, has a different approach. The S’forno[5] writes that the reason Hashem waited to tell this to Avraham until after Lot left was because Hashem was concerned that had He come to Avraham while Lot was still around, the reinforced message that Eretz Yisroel would be given to Avraham would have caused Lot and his shepherds to become haughty and feel that they already owned the place and make themselves comfortable, stealing whatever they wanted. Therefore, Hashem waited for Lot to leave before he spoke to Avraham and showed him all the land He promised to him and his descendents.

            The obvious problem with this S’forno is that Hashem’s plan did not seem to work. The S’forno is saying that Hashem waited for lot to leave Avraham in order to speak to him because He did not want Lot to come to steal. However, that happened anyway! The whole reason why Lot and Avraham split up was because of the fighting that Avraham’s shepherds had with Lot’s to try to get them to stop stealing others’ property. So what did Hashem gain – so to speak – by waiting for Lot to leave in order to speak to Avraham? It seems like either way Lot ended up feeling that he had divine rights to Eretz Yisroel?

            The purpose of life and G-d’s role in this world are topics that have been debated for centuries. There are so many levels of belief each varying when it comes to understanding these core questions. Some believe that the world was created by accident and that humans are a product of chance. Therefore, by definition, life has no purpose, ethics, morals, or expectations other than those made up by man in order to live together under the same sky. Others believe that G-d put us here for His entertainment, which does not either even deserve a refutation. We as Jews however not only hold onto Judaism – the Torah she’bichsacv (Written Torah), the Torah she’ba’al peh (Oral Torah), and our mesorah (tradition) – as a religion, but rather even more, that it contains in it the chochmah (wisdom) and insight into the purpose of mankind and the world as a whole with an order and system to everything – even including things as basic as thought, speech and the most mundane of actions such as which shoe lace to tie first. Not only is the world and everything in it purposeful, but Hashem’s involvement is intricate and intimate.

            As a person lives through life, he or she is inevitably met with struggles and challenges. Sometimes these challenges are in the form of a spiritual struggle bein adom l’makom. Other times it is an interpersonal struggle bein adom l’chaveiro. Sometimes we are challenged financially, sometimes physically, and other times mentally or emotionally. And often times we could even prove to be our own worst enemies and have internal struggles which eat us up alive.

Although to point to a single idea and declare it as the purpose of life is way beyond the scope of this d’var Torah, what we could do as at least understand that there is a purpose which exists and that life’s challenges are not only a necessary means to achieve that purpose, but that life’s challenges are actually hand-picked for us individually by Hashem Himself. Hashem understands our nature perfectly, for he created us. Therefore it is He alone who is able to construct the perfect challenges for us to overcome and grow from. Hashem knows the different measures of the various middos (character traits) He injected in each person individually. Each person has his or her own breaking point, level of patience, degree of frustration and anger, etc. All of these aspects are taken into account and used to create the perfect test for us to grow in the areas we struggle in. Hashem sends us these purposely and they are only meant to help us. The key to it all, though, is the understanding that Hashem never sends us something that is impossible for us to overcome. Yes, things may be extremely difficult, and yes we will fail many times. However, Hashem never sets us up for guaranteed failure. Every nisayon (test) is with the trust and hope that we will make the right decisions and overcome it.

            Perhaps with this we could better understand the S’forno. Lot was clearly someone who was wicked and although would never be able to withstand the types of tests that Avraham was challenged with, he was given his own little challenge – to not succumb to his rationalizations and thievery. Hashem sent Lot this test and alas he failed. However, the nisayon given to him was one he could have won; and had he passed the test and not succumbed to his wickedness, he would have grown and become a better person. However, had Hashem come to reinforce the message to Avraham, that  he was to receive Eretz Yisroel, while Lot was still around, then Lot’s test would have become inaccurate because it would have been to difficult for him to hold himself back from stealing, and Hashem does not give us tests that we cannot pass.

            We must realize that Hashem is not out to get us and that all nisyonos sent our way are ones we are capable of passing. Bearing this in mind as we meet our challenges in whichever form they take, we could perhaps tip the scale in our favor and start off with a positive attitude and an even better shot at winning.



[1] Beraishis 13:7
[2] Rashi ibid.
[3] Beraishis 13:14
[4] Rashi ibid.
[5] Ibid. 

Friday, October 24, 2014

Parshas Noach - “Lost His Mabuls” or Too Stubborn to Change

~Thoughts on the Parsha~
Parshas Noach


“Lost His Mabuls” or Too Stubborn to Change
By: Daniel Listhaus

בִּשְׁנַת שֵׁשׁ מֵאוֹת שָׁנָה לְחַיֵּי נֹחַ בַּחֹדֶשׁ הַשֵּׁנִי בְּשִׁבְעָה עָשָׂר יוֹם לַחֹדֶשׁ בַּיּוֹם הַזֶּה נִבְקְעוּ כָּל מַעְיְנוֹת תְּהוֹם רַבָּה וַאֲרֻבֹּת הַשָּׁמַיִם נִפְתָּחוּ: וַיְהִי הַגֶּשֶׁם עַל הָאָרֶץ אַרְבָּעִים יוֹם וְאַרְבָּעִים לָיְלָה: בְּעֶצֶם הַיּוֹם הַזֶּה בָּא נֹחַ וְשֵׁם וְחָם וָיֶפֶת בְּנֵי נֹחַ וְאֵשֶׁת נֹחַ וּשְׁלשֶׁת נְשֵׁי בָנָיו אִתָּם אֶל הַתֵּבָה:

“In the six hundredth year of Noach’s life, in the second month, on the seventeenth day of the month, on that day all the fountains of the great deep burst forth; and the windows of the heavens were opened. And the rain was upon the earth forty days and forty nights. On that very day Noach came, with Shem, Cham, and Yaffes, Noach’s sons, with Noach’s wife, and the three wives of his sons with them, into the ark….”
-Noach 7:11-13

            The Torah[1] describes that after ten generations from Adom ha’rishon, the world had become extremely corrupt and filled with robbery. Rashi[2] describes that the corruptness of mankind seeped all the way into the fabric of the world even negatively affecting the behavior of animals. As a matter of fact, only Noach, his family, and some of the unadulterated animals were worthy of being saved. Yet, despite how bad the world had become, Rashi[3] points out that Hashem’s patience held strong as He commanded Noach to build a teivah (ark) over the span of  one hundred and twenty years in the hope that people would see the teivah, heed Noach’s warnings from Hashem seriously, and ultimately do teshuva (repent). Unfortunately, however, despite Noach’s many warnings, the dor ha’mabul (generation of the flood) did not opt to change their ways and do teshuva.
           
            The Torah[4] states that “in the middle of that very day” that the rains started falling, Noach and his family entered the ark. Rashi[5] comments that the Torah uses this rare expression here to relate the following. The people of Noach’s generation would say, “If we see him entering the ark, we will break it and kill him.” Therefore, Hashem’s response was to bring Noach and his family to the teivah in full view of everyone to show that there is nothing they could do to prevent Noach from entering.

             The problem with this Rashi is that it is difficult to understand what the people would gain by saying such a thing and who exactly they were challenging. In their minds only one of two things could be true. Either Noach was a complete crazy man rambling about the world coming to an end, or he was telling the truth. If in the end they finally accepted the fact that he was telling the truth, their actions would not have been to try to stop Noach from getting to the ark, but rather to all do teshuva and prevent the mabul (flood) from coming in the first place. Since that is not what happened, it must be that they thought Noach was completely off his rocker. However, if that was the case, why was their reaction to try to stop him from entering the teivah? Leave the crazy 600 year old man alone and do his thing! Furthermore, with Noach locked in an ark thinking the world is going to be flooded out; it would be the perfect opportunity to loot his house and take control of his property.

            Just to drive this point in from a different perspective, let us recall an interesting event that occurred – or rather that did not occur – on May 21st, 2011. In 2001, Harold Camping, a Christian radio show host, predicted that May 21st 2011 would mark the end of the world and be judgment day. As May 2011 came, some of those who believed whole-heartedly even put their money where their mouth was. Front page articles told stories of people who gave up their jobs, sold their homes, and stopped investing in their children's college funds. For example, Robert Fitzpatrick, a 60 year old NYC resident, spent his entire retirement money of $140,000 on a subway billboard warning the public of the coming universal simultaneous earthquakes and destruction of the world. However, all those who did not believe did not bother to try to hush the madness, quite the opposite. Many people poked fun, organizations sponsored counter billboards effectively saying “I told you so” that nothing would happen, and groups were formed – such as the 830,000 people who registered as attending a “Post Rapture Looting” event on Facebook. Those who did not believe took advantage – even if in harmless ways – and those who did believe certainly did not say to themselves, “I believe it’s going to happen but instead of going along with it I will just make life miserable for those who I agree with. So how could we understand – l’havdil – the reaction of Noach’s generation who tried to stop him from entering the ark? If they believed, they should have repented; and if they did not believe, then just leave the man alone or take advantage of the situation. What is the benefit of interfering to make a crazy man even crazier?

            Furthermore, why did Hashem take this so personally – so to speak? The other times where the Torah uses the expression of “in the middle of that day” are during events where people challenged that which Hashem said was going to happen. For example, Hashem told Pharaoh, through Moshe and Aharon, that He was going to take the B’nei Yisroel out of MItzrayim. When the Egyptians were determined to stop that from happening, Hashem said he would take them out in the middle of the day in front of the entire population and whoever wants to try to stop Him could try. However, in this case Hashem had promised to bring a flood if the people did not repent. The dor ha’mabul threatening to stop Noach from entering the teivah sounds more of battle they were picking with Noach than a direct battle against Hashem.

How could we understand the irrational behavior of the dor ha’mabul trying to stop Noach from entering the teivah and the fact that Hashem responded as if they were picking a battle with Him when it seems it was more directed to just making Noach miserable?

In order to make sense of the situation, it must be that the reality was that indeed when the rain started coming, the people in Noach’s generation came to the realization that Noach’s warnings were real and that G-d was not bluffing when He said He would destroy the world with a flood. They realized at that point that their lifestyles were replete with corruption, but even with death staring them in the dor ha’mabul had no interest in changing. Instead, their response was to say, “We may all die, but we will take Noach and his family down with us.” This was audacious to the fullest degree – essentially telling Hashem, not only do we know the graveness of what we are doing and understand the severe punishment but will continue to live our lives as usual anyway, we will even attempt to drag down those who are good down with us.

            Remember, the people of the dor ha’mabul did not particularly like each other. They took advantage of one another, would steal and cheat each other day in and day out. As a matter of fact this was the single difference between them and the dor haflagah (generation of dispersion) later in the parsha who tried to build a tower to fight Hashem. The dor ha’mabul was wiped out, yet the generation waging war on Hashem, was merely dispersed. Rashi[6] explains that the reason the dor haflagah was not punished as severely was because at least they maintained peace amongst themselves. Granted they joined forces for a disgraceful and pointless cause, but at a minimum they joined together. The dor ha’mabul on the other hand despised each other and took advantage whenever possible. They did not live in a functioning society, rather in a completely corrupt society where everyone did what they wanted when they wanted – each man for himself. Yet, one thing they agreed on. They would rather living the horrible lifestyle they chose for themselves than turning around and changing to become better people. They heard Noach’s mussar (rebuke) loud and clear, and when the rain started falling they believed it without a doubt, however their stubbornness prevailed and they were drowned in the mabul trying to defend the nature of their corrupt society.

            It is easy to look at the dor ha’mabul and write them off as complete fools. After all, not much was being asked of them. The things they were transgressing on were so obviously corrupt that any normal person would realize it. Noach was not being spiritual, merely logical! He was not asking them to do anything other than change to be better people who work together and help each other instead of rob, cheat, and kill. However, the truth is that many people have things which deep inside they know are incorrect and perhaps even understand the ramifications or severity of the punishment. Yet, many would rather remain in their ways and even try to drag down others to their level than to even take the smallest steps to change themselves for the better. Our job is to make sure not to be like those of Noach’s generation who were too stubborn to change for their own good, but rather to be like Noach himself who worked hard and went against the pressure of those around him in order to do what was right and live properly.

This Shabbos there is an unbelievable event taking place in this country and around the world. About one million Jews are participating this week in “The Shabbos Project”.  An idea implemented in South Africa only last year for the first time and participated by close to 70 percent of the country’s 75,000 Jews, has now spread to around 50 cities in Israel, over 100 cities in the US, and more than 340 cities in 35 countries around the world. These numbers include Jewish Nobel Prize winners, authors, politicians, athletes, musicians, and celebrities. Non affiliated Jews will have the opportunity to experience a full orthodox Shabbos united with orthodox Jews learning about the laws and customs.

The keeping of Shabbos is much more than a necessary weekly “day of rest”, but rather the day itself is testimony to Hashem’s creating and running the world. The Malbim[7] points out that hidden within the dimensions of the teivah itself exist the fundamental principles that Hashem is the creator of the world, on Whom the world is completely dependent on every second to renew its creation, as well as the controller of the world. Hashem’s name representing His timelessness and Him being Creator of the world is His name of – Yud and Hey and Vuv and Hey. Hashem’s name which represents Him as Master and Controller of the world is his name of Aleph, Daled, Nun, and Yud. If one adds the numerical value of the two names together one will get 26 + 65 = 91 which is the same value of Succah (Samech, Vuv, Kaf, Hey). If you put the name of Hashem one on top of each other, like s’chach on a succah to line up the each of the aforementioned four letter names, one will get the Yud and Hey above the Aleph and Daled respectively, the Vuv on top of the Nun, and the Hey on top of the Yud. The first Yud (10) x Aleph (1) = 10.  Hey (5) x Daled (4) = 20; 10+20=30, which was the height of the teivah. Next, Vuv (6) x Nun (50) = 300, which was the length of the teivah. Last, Hey (5) x Yud (10) = 50 which was the width of the teivah.

The Gemara[8] states that if B’nei Yisroel would keep even one Shabbos properly, that that would merit the immediate arrival of mashiach. Unlike Harold Camping, we do not predict the end of days[9]. However we do know that it is in the near future and that the path of doing teshuva and coming closer to Hashem is the correct one to take and will only hasten his coming.

May Hashem help all those involved with the Shabbos Project across the world to make this experience more than just a positive one, but one which reignites the spark that every Jew is born with. May this be a Shabbos which all the non orthodox and orthodox Jews from all backgrounds who are constantly flying around feeling dissatisfied and unfulfilled finally find true menucha, as we sing of the yonah (dove) that Noach sent from the ark – yonah matz’ah vo manoach, v’sham yanuchu y’giei choach.





[1] Beraishis 6:11
[2] Rashi Beraishis 6:12
[3] Beraishis 6:14
[4] Beraishis 7:13
[5] Ibid.
[6] Rashi Beraishis 11:9
[7] Beraishis 6:15
[8] Yerushalmi Ta’anis 3b (1:1)
[9] Daniel 12:6-13

Friday, October 3, 2014

Yom Kippur and Vezos Ha'Beracha

~Thoughts on the Parsha~
Yom Kippur
And
Vezos Haberachah
Note: Vezos Haberachah is not read this Shabbos


Callous Confessions
By: Daniel Listhaus

יְחִי רְאוּבֵן וְאַל יָמֹת וִיהִי מְתָיו מִסְפָּר: וְזֹאת לִיהוּדָה וַיֹּאמַר שְׁמַע ה' קוֹל יְהוּדָה וְאֶל עַמּוֹ תְּבִיאֶנּוּ יָדָיו רָב לוֹ וְעֵזֶר מִצָּרָיו תִּהְיֶה

“May Reuvein live and not die, and may his men be in the count. And this to Yehuda, and he said: Listen Hashem, to the voice of Yehuda, and to his people shall You bring him; may his hands fight for him and may You be a Helper against his enemies.”
-Vezos Haberachah 33:6-7

            The mishna[1] describes the process that the Beis Din HaGadol (The Supreme Court) would go through with a woman who is a sotah. Before having her drink the mei hamarim (literally- bitter waters), the beis din would try to convince the suspected sotah to just admit that she indeed was with the man that her husband warned her not to be with. After all, the mei hamarim itself as well as its potential effect was no laughing matter. The vital ingredient of the mei hamarim was that they would dissolve the parsha of sotah into it – which contains Hashem's name. A sotah who would not admit  would have to drink this water as a test. If indeed she had done what we suspect her of doing, her insides would blow up and she would die.

            The gemara[2] elaborates that one of the steps of the persuasion process was that beis din would tell her stories of people in Chumash who did improper things (similar to the sotah) but were not embarrassed to admit to them. So too, they try to tell her, she should learn from them and not let her embarrassment overpower her to stop her from admitting what she did. The two examples of stories that the gemara says that beis din would use to illustrate their point are the ones which involves Reuvein and Yehuda. Reuvein switched the beds in Yaakov's tent after Rachel died, deciding to take action when he saw that Yaakov had chosen Bilhah (Rachel's maidservant) to take her place instead of Leah. Beis din would relate this story to the sotah and then say that Reuvein stood up to his actions, did teshuva (repentance), and admitted to his father that it as he that switched the beds. Beis din would then mention the episode of Yehuda and Tamar. Yehuda was mezaneh (had marital relations) with Tamar without knowing who she was. When Yehuda was later informed that Tamar had zenus with someone, his reaction was that she should be put to death, However, when he realized that she had the items that Yehuda had used to pay for her services, he admitted “tzadkah me'meh'nee” - declaring that Tamar was righteous. Beis din would then again suggest to the sotah that she too should admit to her actions like Yehudah did.

            The gemara continues to mention that we see from the juxtaposition of passukim (verses) in this week's parsha that it was Yehudah who actually caused Reuvein to admit what he did. Rashi[3] elaborates that Moshe was davening that the shevet (tribe) of Reuvein should live in this world and “not die” in the next world – meaning that the incident of him switching the beds in Yaakov's tent should not be remembered to his detriment, because, as we see from the juxtaposition of the aforementioned passukim, when Reuvein saw that Yehuda stood up and admitted, he took the opportunity to do so as well.[4]

            The important thing to keep in mind though is that admitting one's sins to people is not something that is so obvious that could be done. Unlike other religions, confessions to a Rabbi is not a part of our teshuva process. We must confess personally to Hashem. As a matter of fact it is not simple at all for someone to admit to his own sins in public. After all, one is not allowed to say lashon harah even about oneself unless it is serving a constructive purpose which falls within the guidelines of hilchos lashon harah or if he is speaking to someone he trusts who could help him conquer his nisyonos (moral tests). Furthermore, as the gemara itself points out, we are not permitted to go around announcing our aveiros – doing so would demonstrate that we do not take our aveiros seriously. The gemara therefore asks that granted Yehuda was allowed to admit what he did because in the absence of doing so, Tamar would have been killed. However, how was Reuvein able to admit? What he had done was long over with no such severe ramifications, so what purpose did Reuvein's admitting serve? The gemara answers that Reuvein admitted in order that Yaakov should not suspect his other brothers. In other words, until Reuvein publicly admitted there was a little thing that bothered Yaakov every time he spoke to one of his sons because in the back of his mind he would wonder if perhaps this was the son who had switched the beds. Therefore after Yehuda stood up to admit, Reuvein followed suit.

            We could see from this whole gemara a fantastic concept. Here we have a sotah who will face a most  unpleasant death by not admitting what she did, as well as be responsible for having the Name of Hashem be erased. The beis din, tries to convince her to admit and does so by bringing stories of people who admitted even in order to save someone else's life and even to save others from merely being suspect in their father's eyes. Indeed admitting publicly is an incredibly scary thing. Yet, during the y'mei slichos, aseres y'mei teshuva and especially on Yom Kippur itself, we find ourselves admitting to whole lists of things that we have done. How could it be that a sotah, who is already in all the headlines as a suspect having been warned by her husband and witnessed by eidim (witnesses), and who is now facing death, needs to be persuaded to admit in order not to have a Name of Hashem be erased but yet we are able to show up comfortably in Shul alongside our friends and spend all day asking forgiveness for aveiros we have done? The gemara had said that one who is able to just admit his sins is someone shameless and a mechatzef. So how could we come before Hashem in public and admit to the things we have done?

            There is no question that indeed this is the method that must be used, we have so little of our own zechusim (merits) and depend so heavily on Avraham, Yitzchak, and Yaakov and the 13 Middos of Rachamim (attributes of mercy), which Hashem promises He will never return empty, as well as the power of coming as a tzibbur (community) to ask Hashem to help us do teshuva. However, the big question is on us who when we admit to the things we have done, it is with such callousness. Such an absence of feeling while admitting to such horrible things could only be because of one of three reasons: One reason could be that we look around us and see that everyone is saying the same words. Yom Kippur is part of our yearly calendar. It is not like we were caught “red handed”, rather we are doing this on our own, just part of the routine of being a Jew. Therefore, perhaps it does not seem as personal to us. A second possible explanation is that we do not feel that the things we are saying are relevant to us. After all, some of the things we admit to seem a bit extreme and we may think to ourselves, “well, I may have done 'x', and given the opportunity I would probably be willing to do 'y', but 'z' I would never go so far to do.” The distance we may feel to the aveiros we are admitting to may make us feel more relaxed and think that the tefillos and viduy are not so relevant to us. A third possible explanation is that perhaps we have given up. We stand in Shul and do a drum-roll on our chest by “ashamnu” and the “al-cheit's” as we think to ourselves – I am who I am and there is no way for me to change now.

            However, these three fatal diseases – for that is precisely what they are – as causes for our callous teshuva, could not be further from the truth. First, the Chovos Halevavos[5] writes that beyond what we could term as “chovas ha'eivarim” - the responsibilities we have in using our bodies to do mitzvos, there is another area of avodas Hashem which is chovas ha'leiv – what we are expected to feel inside us constantly. The Chovos Halevavos offers the following parable: The personal servant of a king is expected to take care of every single need in the kings house at all times. It happens to be that sometimes he is required to take care of the gardening, mowing the lawn, raking leaves, etc. but those are not chores which are constantly present, but rather tasks which are seasonal. So too we have mitzvos we do once a year, we have mitzvos we do once a month, we have mitzvos we do once a week, we have mitzvos we do once a day, and we have mitzvos we do multiple times a day. However, there is also a category of mitzvos in the heart which must be active every second. This is the realization that Hashem exists and is the Ruler of the world, and that he knows our thoughts. So as much as we could convince ourselves that we were not caught “red-handed” and that we are just joining together in Shul for our yearly ritual, we are dead wrong. Hashem knows what we did and what our intentions were. Therefore when we admit to having done aveiros, it should feel real to us and we should try to get at least a small feeling that we were really caught red-handed, but are now given the chance to repent.

            Second, although it may be true that some of the parts of viduy sound extreme, it was intentionally designed this way to include any aveirah we may have done. Every aveirah fits into one of the categories in the al cheit's. Additionally, the Orchos Tzadikkim[6] writes that when we say “ashamnu...” and go through the aleph-beis, we have the ability to personalize  the viduy and insert our own aveiros according to the aleph-beis, that we are aware of and want to do specific teshuva for.

            In response to the third cause of callous confession, there is no such thing as giving up. As a Jew there is no option to stay at a stagnant level. A person who stops growing hurts himself exponentially because not only does he stop growing, but he starts falling. So the one who convinces himself that he cannot change is lying because either way he is changing – just for the worse and not for the better. What he really means to say is that he is not capable of improving as a person according to the Torah. However, such a despair is completely false. In Netzavim the Torah[7] states, “ For this commandment that I command you today, it is not hidden from you and is not distant. It is not in the heavens...nor is it across the sea....Rather, the matter is very near to you, in your mouth and in your heart, to perform it.” The Ramban[8] learns that these passukim refer to the mitzva of teshuva. It is very near to us. We just have to make sure that we are doing it with more than our mouth alone, but rather as the passuk describes, “with your mouth and with your heart”.
           
            Hashem has given us the opportunity to join together as a tzibbur and do teshuva. Let us utilize the opportunity to also make it more personal, even if it means taking just one thing that we have done and think about it, regret it, admit to it, and to wok hard on not doing it again. Perhaps in this way we will have a productive and real Yom Kippur.

            May Hashem help us not fall into the traps of thinking that it is part of the routine, that it is not relevant, or that it is too late. With this new focus may k'lal yisroel be zocheh to do teshuva sh'leimah this Yom Kippur and may Hashem respond by bringing Mashiach as we blow the shofar after Ne'ilah.



[1]    Sotah 1:4, Gemara Sotah 7a
[2]    Sotah 7b
[3]    Devarim 33:6 and 33:7 as well as in the Gemara Sotah 7b
[4]    See Chizkuni - Devarim33:6
[5]    In the introduction
[6]    Orchos Tzadikkim:Sha'ar HaTeshuva
[7]    Devarim 30:11-14
[8]    Ibid.